Not meant to be...

I haven't posted in forever because, honestly, I don't have too much to say that I haven't already said. The boys are still with us for now. We have begun to transition them back to their mom and visit times have increased and will be increasing more in September. Since they will both be in school come Tuesday visits will be happening on the weekends and will start to include some overnights. The expected date to move them home is mid-November. Their mom is hoping we will still see the boys. She says we have become a huge part of their life and leaving us will be hard for them. Well, duh! She is such a twit. She's worrying about how hard it will be for them to leave us but she didn't worry much about them when she left them. In case it isn't clear, I don't think too much of their mom. She's been working with a parent trainer and she still doesn't know what she should feed them or to put sunscreen on them. Sorry, but I don't think you can fix stupid.

I am bitter and angry and feeling hopeless. Everybody wants to know how I am and how I feel about the boys leaving in 10 weeks or so. How will I handle it? I will fall apart. I will lay in my bed and cry and curse and be more angry and bitter than I am now.But then, what will I do? I will get up out of that bed and move on. I still have my husband and my dogs and my house and my job and my family. I will pack up everything I have bought for children and I will take it to Goodwill. And, that will be the end of that. Another chance to be a mother down the tubes. Guess it just wasn't meant to be...