We spent last evening with some good friends and their 3 month old baby. The husband half of this couple had cancer as a child and they were never sure he would be able to father a child. They became pregnant 6 months after their wedding. Isn't it funny how God works. They were sure they would not be able to get pregnant and 13 years ago I had no clue how much I would struggle. The natural order of things has been turned upside down for me. I hoped to have 3 children by now. Now I am begging God for just one.
My SIL is pregnant with her third. This is a couple that thinks about having a baby and they're pregnant almost instantly. She is a wonderful person and mother and I think she deserves the big family she craves. But do I? I like to think so. I try to be a good person. I try to be kind to others around me, even strangers. I talk to God all day long. I pray for myself and others. I thank Him for who and what I have in my life. I thank him for the strength he has given me. He has given me incredible strength otherwise I would have just stayed in bed many a morning. This morning is one of those mornings.
Long overdue final update (such a good one)!
3 months ago
