Kind of like dating?

She hasn't received his file....sigh......

Our meeting with Suzanne went really well. She is a very kind, compassionate and enthusiastic woman. Before becoming an adoption worker she worked for a Christian service as a therapist for sexually assaulted women and children. I can imagine that she cried every day while in that profession. That is her level of compassion. I can see where that job would have been very hard for her. She said she enjoys being a "family matchmaker" so much more!

Suzanne heard yesterday about a 6 year old boy who may be available for adoption soon. She wanted to know what ages we were willing to accept. I told her ages 5 or 6 would be about the oldest I feel comfortable starting out with. E said up to 10.

Suzanne is going to gather some files of children that are available. I think she feels one child would be a good start for us at this time. We have plenty of time to add more to the mix!

We should be able to start talking or e-mailing children's social workers and foster parents soon and then actually start meeting with children. Suzanne said most people know at the first meeting whether they "click" or not with a certain child. She said it's kind of like that first date. The ones where you either feel it or you don't. She reinforced that we can say no at any time to any child and we won't feel any pressure. They'll just keep looking for the right match for us.

It feels so strange talking about a child this way. How will I not imagine a connection? I have dreamed of being a mother my whole life. I have imagined my life with a child in it for years. My chest has hurt so many times looking at that empty little bedroom. Please God, give us wisdom in the choice we will be making. Guide our heads and our hearts equally so we choose the right child to give a bright and wonderful future to.