I seriously have only 5 minutes or so so I'll make this short and sweet. C's dad has a custody hearing tomorrow (Thursday) at 4pm with Friend of the Court. If he wins, C will be leaving us. I have mixed emotions. In my mind I have known that these boys most likely won't become available for adoption. I have kept myself somewhat detached. There were several times, times that were rough, where I thought to myself that I couldn't wait until they leave. I think it's been a defense mechanism or something. Then there are times, times when my heart takes over, when I think I want them to stay forever. I have to remind myself that they are not my children and they most likely never will be.
Family, friends, acquaintances - they all ask if I'll be okay if the boys leave. Yes, I will be okay. God has seen to it that I am always okay. I won't ever be the same, but I'll be okay. I'll let you know how things turn out tomorrow. It may not be for a few days because I may be packing up a little boy to move on. Say a prayer for him, that whatever happens is what is best for him. Only God knows and I hope he shares his wisdom with a certain judge tomorrow.
Jane 23
5 months ago
5 comments:
Thanks for the comment on my blog ;) I have a good friend who is in a very similar situation. All I can say is that you have given him a precious, amazing gift and your love will touch him forever. Praying for you during this tough time.
Praying that what is best for this little boy happens.
Praying for you all...
Dear Lord, hear our prayers. Bless this child and this family.
I am praying...
Ah M, I wish I lived closer and I could just give you a hug. I have no doubt, you have been the best mother these boys could have hoped for during these times of transition and what a blessing for them to have you in their lives. I will be praying for whatever decisions are made over the next few days. ((Hugs))
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