The trial that wasn't....

I got so caught up in the camping prep I forgot to post that the trial was postponed indefinitely. At this time we have no reschedule date. I guess O's dad got out of jail and his attorney wanted time to review the case with him. That's understandable but very frustrating. I didn't want to leave you all hanging!

I hope you all have a great holiday weekend! I'm posting this from our camp site and I am prepared to enjoy this long weekend and my vacation days from work. I have a license to chill this weekend:)

This is the week! Thursday morning we have to be at the county prosecutor's office in the wee hours for a briefing before court. I believe he wants to meet us and talk to us about O and see how he's doing with us. I am so anxious; I can hardly stand it!

How is he doing?? He is doing GREAT! I am simply amazed by how well he is doing.

How are we doing?? We are learning and some days are a struggle. He is a good kid for having no direction previously in his life. It is hard to have enough patience some days though. We are having to teach him so much, even the very basic things like flushing the toilet every time he goes or picking up things or even not walking up and grabbing something from someone. All day long we have to be ON and it's exhausting.

I am not complaining, don't get me wrong, I'm just stating the facts. E worked just 3 days this week and he was with O the other 4. I was out of town for work yesterday and when I got home I had to take over. E was whipped and said "they spent too much time together this past week." I laughed but I knew what he meant. It's hard to be so diligent. Like right now I'm making dinner and trying to get him pick up all his art things off the table. (He's super artistic and musical and not into sports or trucks at all) Anyway, it's "O, put your markers in their box. O, put your markers in their box. O, put your markers in their box!!" Then we repeat with crayons and the scissors and the glue stick and his papers and his coloring books....it's like that all. day. long. I love it, I do, and I praise him like he just cured cancer when he does it within a couple times of asking him. Like I said, diligence and being constantly on. Every day he learns and does a bit better.

One thing we didn't need to teach him was his basic manners. He has said please and thank you and may I ever since he arrived. He had a 2 week unit at daycare last month on manners and he cleaned up on the reward chart. He got a sticker every time he displayed good manners and he kicked butt over the other kids, LOL.

Anyway, things are good here. We're still waiting to hear on our previous 2 boys and their futures. They are still leaning towards moving C to his dad's and hopefully we can get D back. I have my qualms about being involved with his mother for the rest of our lives but I do want what is best for D. We had such good cooperation with C's dad too that the boys would still be able to be in contact and have holiday and summer visits. I want them to stay connected. The next hearing for their case is sometime in July. I can hold out on that case because O keeps me hopping so much.

We have our first camping trip starting after court on Thursday and O is so excited! I'm having trouble convincing him that he doesn't need to take all of his worldly possessions with, though.

That's it for now! My goal is to post once a week from here on out. Don't hold me to it too strongly!

O boy!

Whoa....I haven't been on the blogs in forever. Things are a changin!

Things are changing in my life, too. The plan is, we'll be adoptive parents by year-end!

We have a hearing on the 24th for termination of both parents rights. I can't go into details in the here and now but his parents are making it really easy for us. Once rights are terminated there will be a couple of 90-day reviews but then we should be able to adopt O. It could happen in November or December. I am praying that it is this year.

This boy was made to be ours. All the tears and fears and anger and doubt and wondering are in the past. He. is. our. boy. period.

He and E have bonded unbelievably. We had concerns about that since his dad wasn't in his life and it was just he and his mom but all fears are now gone. He loves E and wants to do everything he does. He loves me too but he can take me or leave me when E is around. That is fine by me! I couldn't imagine a better role model than my husband for this little boy. Plus, it gives me time to do my thing which is usually vacuuming and cleaning without the assistance of my little man, LOL!

He's in daycare usually 3 days a week and he appears to have caught up socially with very little effort. Everybody loves him. We registered him for kindergarten already and he has his testing in early June. This kid is off the charts in intelligence; we can see that already. He can write. He can already read some words. He knows his colors and shapes and letters and numbers....he is smart. (Did I mention he's 4-1/2?) He's not into sports at all but loves music and art. He loves working in the wood shop with E or my FIL too. They have been making corn toss games and birdhouses and then painting them in cool designs. I have a SpongeBob one hanging in my yard right now! (He loves, loves, LOVES SB!)

I cannot say enough about this child and how amazed I am by him. We are seeing very little effect from the neglect he endured while with his mother. He is resilient. He is a fighter. He is a survivor. And, he'll be fine!

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On a sad note, our previous boys have been back in foster care for almost a month. They were home for 4 months to the day when their mother was arrested. Our worker called me on a Monday and said they were filing the petition for removal and wanted to know if we could bring the boys back. E and I talked about it and prayed about it and called our parents and my mentor and we had to say no. It about broke my heart in two. We had to do what was best for O and bringing the two boys back was not going to be good for him as he had only been with us for a monthat that time. I about died inside.

The littlest guy may be going to his dad's. They are working on that but then D will be alone. We are all concerned about that. His little brother is his best friend and they have been together every singe day for almost 4 years. When and if that happens, we will try to get D back with us. I would love to have 2 boys and then O would have a playmate. D and O are 1 year and 1 grade apart so it may be ok. We will see how it plays out. I just knew that I could not handle 3 boys ages 5, 4 and 3. I know my limitations inside and out.



Carrying on

It is amazing how quickly life goes right back to the normalcy of having children. We were just one week shy of being childless for three months and, while we enjoyed our little break, I am so glad to be a mommy again. Life is not all sunshine and gumdrops but our last case taught us so much and, while this little guy is giving us new challenges, things are going relatively smooth.

Little Man was severly neglected. I know he spent at least 48 hours on his own this last time while his mom was passed out intoxicated. This wasn't a new thing for him. In just over a year's time CPS has stepped in four times. The first time he stayed in the home and services were presented for the two of them. The next three times, which happened in the last twelve months, he was removed. He went to the same foster home during the first two removals but they are not a foster-to-adopt home like we are. That is why he came to us this past removal. It appears to all parties involved that his mother's rights will be permanently terminated.

This past weeke has been tough for him. He has said several times over the past 18 days that he misses his mom but this past week things have ramped up. Starting this past Wednesday he has been sad a lot. He pouts but he barely cries. He says he's sad because he misses his mom. It is heartbreaking. I've been told that when she was sober she was a great mom. She just couldn't beat the alcohol. I don't know if there was anything else going on but I know she drank heavily.

We just keep on carrying on here. A lot of love and attention and structure. That's all we can really do. He tries out patience like the other boys do but he is a lot different too. He feels like he is ours already. We see a great future for all three of us.

Additional Info...

We received the court documents in the mail today. Yes, already. The termination hearing is scheduled for May. I think they are serious about him not going back. I feel so bad for his mom but she is sick and needs help terribly.

Also, I forgot to mention that he is from almost 2 hours away. No chance of keeping him in the same school. I also don't think there will be any parent time from now until termination. There are some pretty serious circumstances regarding his removal that I cannot go into right now. Let's just say he is much safer now.

Good things happening

I have good news! We have another foster placement!! Even better for us, this one could be permanent. The petition for termination has already been filed.

He's been with us just a few days but all is going good. He is 4 years old and coming to us from a severe neglect situation. Someone has been working with him though, possibly at preschool. He's smart; knows his colors, shapes, ABC's and 123's and can even read a little. Four years old! He's 42 lbs and 42 inches tall. Wearing a 5T or boys 5/6. And, he's a green-eyed redhead! My own little ginger:)

He has never had a man in his life. Dad hasn't been in the picture and, apparently, Mom hasn't had boyfriends. Little Man spent the last couple days one on one with E. I went to work and E stayed home so they could bond and build trust. It seems to have been a good decision on our part.

Next week Little Man will start daycare with the same provider our first kids had. She is super excited to have us back. We chose daycare over my MIL this time since he really needs socialization. He's on the waiting list for preschool but after meeting the teacher yesterday she moved him to the top. She talked with him a little and she thinks he'll be able to start kindergarten in the fall. His attention span and focus needs work but our daycare can help with that too. She does focus activities and had a pretty strict schedule and routine. That's what he certainly needs!

Everything is falling into place perfectly, including the timing of the termination. His CW is pushing for termination ASAP (he's been removed 3 times) and she knows we want to adopt. She considers us a great match for him and he doesn't have other family stepping up. He is a real trooper but we have our work cut out for us. He's been on his own for too long and he has had no structure.He's pretty easily redirected and corrected but it is exhausting on our part. Hopefully we will see improvement daily.

I guess that's it for now! I'll keep you all posted as time goes on. My heart is torn because I know in order for us to adopt him another mother will be loosing him. I know it's in his best interest not to go back.

Calling on my Sistas!

Well, ya'll, this is weird. If I didn't know better I'd swear that I was PG. It's been 6 1/2 years since I was pregnant but this feels so similar. E even mentioned it tonight. Weird stuff going on such as: abdominal discomfort and fullness (my pants don't fit), starving and then getting full after just a few bites, exhausted all the time (even after 8 hours of sleep) and needing to pee every 1/2 hour (and feeling like I have to go again right after I go). I would seriously think I was PG if Iwasn't on cycle day 11 and if my temp hadn't been down for 13 days. It can't be, I know that. My only other conclusion is that my endo is going haywire or I have fibroids. Any thoughts? I have an appt with my OB/GYN in April but I don't know if I should really wait. You gals are my experts! Thanks in advance:)