You won't believe it

Well, maybe you will. I seem to have the worst luck. And my bad days are really bad.
Today was pretty rough.
But, you gals just get it! You feel what I feel. Wait until you read this:

E sent me a text on lunch saying "our kids" were off the site. He thought it was because we had been matched with them. I had to break it to him that it meant the kids were matched with someone else. I told him we have to actually meet the kids before we are considered for adoption. He got it then. The foster parents have decided to adopt. Sigh. How nice that we find out from seeing the children removed from the list rather than our caseworker, who we have not heard from in almost a month.

Then, I get back from lunch and hear the girls all talking. From the gist of their conversation I deduce that our new coworker is pregnant. Great. I now work with 3 pregnant women. Please, just shoot me now! One is due the end of February, the next is due mid March and the new one is due in June. Yay...lucky me. Keep in mind, there are only 7 employees in our office. Two have had hysterectomies, 3 are pregnant, 1 just graduated high school and then there is me. The infertile one. The one that gets to hear all day long from our members, "be careful...it might be contagious, har,har". Yuck, yuck. I want to punch someone.

Just for Leila.....

Here's an update. Nothing. Temp is up, down, up, down. I don't think I am pregnant. I may have miscarried or I may be very wonky this month. Like I said, it's in God's hands. I am not thinking about it and whatever happens happens.

E is feeling better although he took yesterday off too. Last night was the first night he was able to stay in bed. I am so glad he was able to sleep in bed because I slept in our one recliner. I kept coughing and coughing and could not lay down. I caught a cold. Thank goodness, I don't have what he had!

John made it home on New Year's Eve. They still have not figured out what caused the seizures. He is off work for awhile and will not be able to drive for 6 months. He is on anti-seizure medication and will be having more tests done. It's just a weird thing. He is so lucky he was not driving when it happened. He said he pulled into his parking spot, put the truck in park and got a blinding pain across his forehead. He got out of the truck and that's the last he remembers.

I am hoping to hear from our agency this week. The foster family was going to make their decision after the holidays whether they are going to adopt the 2 children we have been picked for. I haven't heard from our CW since December 6th when she told be that the birth mother was going to parent and that we had been picked for the boy and girl. We'll see if I hear anything.

I'm waiting for the "big changes" to take place at work. I have decided to stick it out at the credit union. I honestly love what I do and I have too much time invested to give it up now. We are starting a mortgage program early this year and I need the experience and training that will be offered. A senior loan officer with mortgage lending experience? Now, that's what I'm talking about! Then I would feel better about leaving for a financial institution that has their lending officers in an office full time and not squeezing loan work in between cashing paychecks. But, I digress.

Speaking of work, I had better get ready. We have our temporary teller starting today. She'll be working to cover the 2 maternity leaves in late February, March and April. Thank goodness, I don't have to train her. Tummy-rubbing mommy is going to be doing the training. That will keep her occupied and keep her out of my space.

Happy New Year?

Here is my update! Thanks for all your prayers and support. I would have posted sooner but I just woke up from a nap.

Nothing has changed. Temp is still one degree higher than it should be if this was really my period. I haven't tested. I'm riding it out. I've had post peak temps for 17 days now. This from the girl with a 10 day luteal phase. It's in God's hands.

Hubby spent 2 hours in ER last night. He has multiple itises (I love saying that). He has bronchitis, pharyngitis and tonsillitis, despite the fact his tonsils were removed when he was 7. The doctor said his tonsils have grown back. I'm serious. I didn't know they could grow back and neither did E but evidently they can! He is on an antibiotic and a prescription cough medicine. He couldn't sleep in bed last night and he tried to nap with me today and started coughing as soon as he laid down.

We were planning on going to our town's big New Year's Eve celebration tonight but that is out. We just don't feel up to it and he really can't be out. It's not cold here, 50 and raining right now, which is really weird for Michigan this time of year, but still. Our town has a huge party called Light up the Lake. We have a ball drop, a beer tent, live entertainment on the streets and fireworks set off on a rooftop downtown. It looks so cool. It's only the second year they've done it and it is going to be huge this year. Tomorrow there is a 5K run which E was going to do and they had to cancel the world records snow angel challenge because all our snow has melted.

My boss's brother, John, is still in the hospital. They did several tests yesterday, including a spinal tap and an MRI, but they have no diagnosis yet. He didn't have any more seizures last night or this morning. He's been telling the nurses that he has plans for New Year's Eve and that he just had to be released. He even made his mom come get him some money from the credit union just in case but we all doubt he'll be going anywhere today. The poor guy, he's so cute and funny. I'm sure he's scared. I know I would be!

That's all really, no changes. Hubby feels poopy, I feel poopy, and John wants to get home for the party.

Please, every one have fun tonight but stay safe! Kiss your loved ones at Midnight! I know I will if I can stay awake that long;)

What is going on????

Thank you for your prayers. I appreciate them so very much.

I just got home from an awful day at work. My temp is still up. The bleeding has slowed. Dare I hope? All I can do is put this in God's hands. Thy will be done...

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This morning my boss's younger brother was found in the parking lot of his work unconscious near his truck. He was taken by ambulance to our local hospital and then transferred by ambulance to a bigger hospital south of here. He has had a total of 5 seizures today, 2 of them coming after they started anti-seizure medication. He had had several tests today and they scheduled a brain scan for tomorrow. This is so scary!

Late today the power went out at work. If you've ever worked in a financial institution you know how bad it sucks to loose power.

And to top it all off my hubby was going straight from work to the ER. He is so sick but he had to work because they were so short handed. I am praying he does not have pneumonia.

2010 just had to go out with a bang, didn't it?

Damn this uterus!

Seriously, damn this uterus of mine! I was late, temp was up and staying up. I bought tests last night. I started bleeding last night. I didn't test. Temp is still up. I'm still bleeding. I'm thinking we miscarried again. I cannot bring myself to test and confirm my suspicions. I guess I'd rather not know.

Advent Prayer Buddy reveal

This Advent Season I had the great pleasure of praying for a fellow blogger who has been doubly blessed. I was assigned Brit from Small Things with Great Love! Brit and her husband welcomed their precious twin boys, Elijah Peter and Michael Todd, on Monday December 13th. Brit, I will continue to pray for you and your baby boys. It must be oh-so-new and exciting and exhausting as well! I will also continue to pray for your brother for his safety and success while serving our country. You should be receiving a little something in the mail soon. I pray you'll have a few minutes a day to enjoy it! God bless.

Whatcha been doing?

Me? What have I been doing? Nothing exciting enough to write about, that's for sure!

We've had one family Christmas get-together, the one with my BIL's family last weekend. It was a great weekend. I took a vacation day Friday and we headed down in the late morning. We hung out with our SIL until my BIL got out of work and then we went out to dinner where my SIL offered to be a surrogate for us. I know. Screech! Stop the record. Yes, she sincerely offered to surrogate for us. And, she offered her eggs if mine aren't viable. Do you know how hard it was for me to tell her we can't do it? Do you know how tempting it was to say yes, forget what the Catholic Church believes? Of course I said no and it was one of the hardest noes ever. And they think it is ridiculous, the reasons why I had to say no. They attend a reformed church, which is fine, but they cannot believe that I am saying no to life. I could not make them understand the church's teachings on assisted reproduction. I probably never will be able to. I believe my call is to bring light to children who have had a dark childhood, not to bring another baby into the world.

Saturday my MIL and SIL and I attended the Prin.cess Dia.na exhibit at the art museum downtown. It was a very nice exhibit and her dresses are stunning but it was a very sad thing all the same. Such a bright life she was and she did so much good with her work but we all saw how easy it was for her to fall into sin. I left with a terrible headache and all I wanted to do after was lay down, which I did.

Saturday night after the kids went to bed the 6 of us adults sat around with the TV off and just talked and laughed. It was a very enjoyable evening.

Sunday we went to church with them and I do enjoy their services. Their worship music is amazing and I was brought to tears several times while rejoicing musically in the birth of Christ. The sermon was wonderful and hopeful while reinforcing our new birth when being a follower of Christ. After the service they had the children's Christmas program. My nieces did a wonderful job! G, age 5, sang her heart out and we could hear every word from her mouth. E, age 3, did a wonderful job with all the motions that went along with the songs and although she did not remember all the words she sang along as much as she could. Little L, age 1, was having his own party in the nursery and missed the whole show.

We headed home mid-afternoon and then chilled at home the rest of the day. We worked all week and E is working the whole weekend. We're doing Christmas with my family Christmas Day in the evening after E gets out of work. That's about it!

It'll be a quiet weekend, that's for sure, but this quiet time allows me to reflect. Reflect on where we have been, where we are now and where we'll be soon. I am amazed at all that God has given me, both material and immaterial. I am amazed to think and dream about all that is to come. The birth of Christ gives us hope and that is something that all of us need so much of.

Merry Christmas to you all and I pray that God blesses you in the coming year in ways that you can not imagine!


***Thank you for your prayers for my friend K. She had 3 vertebrae removed from her neck and replaced with cadaver vertebrae. They also removed numerous bone spurs. Despite her surgery being very long and arduous she went home late the next day and is doing remarkably well. Please pray with me that she continues to heal and is 100% in no time.

****I'll reveal my prayer buddy sometime over the weekend. She has been truly blessed this Advent season but I cannot take any of the credit for it. The Lord was blessing her long before she became my prayer buddy! I cannot wait to see who prayed for me!