First, thank you! For your prayers, for your support! I feel like the old lady on this infertility block. 12 years I've been riding this roller coaster and I thought I would get off this ride when we were approve to adopt. Not so, and how I hate roller coasters! I thought I would handle this better than I did yesterday. I've got experience! Thankfully days like yesterday are few and far between.
The answer to yesterday's meltdown came this morning. My temp plummeted a whole degree. Yep, hormone crash. I'm at the tail end of a 23 day cycle with a 9 day luteal phase. That's right, 23 days. That means I'll end another cycle right around Christmas. Great, 2 hormone crashes this month and a holiday I get to spend alone to boot!(More on that later!) I so miss the 30 day cycles I had while taking Clom.id. So very much.
I seem to be dropping off a day every month on my cycle. I'll be 37 in January so by my math I should be bleeding all month long by the time I'm 38! Not really, but that's how it feels. Maybe I'll hit menopause early? One can only hope!!
Have a blessed day! I know I will, I'm going to make myself!
Long overdue final update (such a good one)!
3 months ago
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Sigh. I am so sorry. :(
I do understand how you feel, in so many ways. I have had endo for 14 years and my cycles are usually about 21 days, which totally sucks because the bleeding and cramping is aweful from my endo. My worst nightmare came true in October when I had severe bleeding and cramping for 22 days straight! I am seeing a specialist and he tried one medicine first to stop the bleeding/cramping, no luck, then another one and the bleeding/cramping stopped for a few weeks and then started again the week before Thanksgiving and lasted the whole 10 days my family was staying with me! Just my luck. He has doubled my dose, but I am still having some bleeding/cramping again. I have surgery in Janurary and hope this helps!
I also understand the pain of childlessness on Christmas. My husband and I had 9 Christmases without children and it was depressing the whole month of December.
God has blessed us with the most wonderful daughter in the whole world. She turned 6 months on December 1st and her birthmother called me 6 months ago today (when she was 3 days old). It has been a rollercoaster of a journey, but we held on to God and He protected us. I hope and pray that you will be blessed with a child from God to celebrate Christmas with, for nothing is impossible with God.
Girl, you know I'm praying for ya..
I know exactly how you feel...and hormones don't ever help. *sigh* Praying for you.
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